Checking in

I've been M I A. I actually started a post that I will someday, somehow finish, but it's going to take a while. It's sad and sweet and it's about someone special, Christian, whom we lost recently too soon. I tweek the blog here and there..honestly because I want it to be just right. That's what he was. Annddd...here come the tears. This is why it's not finished!

SO..we've learned valuable lessons over the past month..love those around you with all that you have. You just never know when something is going to happen. Life is full of ups and downs and we are still fortunate to be on this Earth to experience all that there is out there. Good and Bad. Never take anything or anyone for granted..if you love someone, tell them. If you want to do something, do it. If you want to hug someone, hug them. You get my point.

Jake. He's been hugged and hugged and hugged all month long! There were a few days after Christian passed that I just couldn't put Jake down. I mean, i still want to hug and cuddle with him all the time.. but there were points in that week after that it's all I wanted to do. Jake is going to grow up..and he's going to go out on his own and experience life. I want him to have the best of everything and experience the world and to be safe. Be safe. The hardest thing I have had to see this month was a mother after she lost one of her four children. The saddest part of all is that it didn't have to happen. But it did. I keep thinking "if only". But life can't be "if only's". It just can't. That sucks. That REALLY sucks.

Tonight Jake told us, as I was changing his diaper: "I love my family." Melted my heart. He knows that his family consists of "Mommy, Daddy, Kitty and Jake". Someday he will realize that family is even more than those in our home. He's got one great big family!

On a funnier note..Jake gets on his truck and pulls up next to me as I set on the love seat - "Chicken Nuggets and Fries, please". Taps my hand and drives off. Been to a drivethru lately, ya think? We honestly don't go THAT much..but I guess he enjoys it ;)


Alex and I are off on a much needed getaway soon. MUCH needed.

Be safe.